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Pinky Promises - I Take Promises Seriously

Sun, 01 Mar 2026 10:30:38 +0300

One thing I take very seriously is promises, and it disappoints me so much when we agree to do something, or someone promises me to do something, and then they don’t. It’s the same as how important the pinky promise is with Anne.

I know you always try to do your best. You’ve changed a lot of things in yourself to be more considerate and to be a good person, a good friend, and of course a good partner. I’m sorry if you feel bad a lot of the time, or feel like you’re not as good as you need to be. You are becoming better every day, trust me. We are learning this together. We have to tell each other what we need, and each of us should try to be gentle with the other, just like we try to do.

The Garden Inside Your Heart

Fri, 27 Feb 2026 16:32:38 +0300

I told you that I loved being loved by a writer , or someone in art. I’ve always found it so romantic to fall in love with a man who shows you his softness and kindness, while he is tough on the outside, and who loves you completely, only you. Men like that are so rare. It is so rare in this generation to find a man who is fully devoted to his lover, or a relationship that feels so loyal.

Your Words, My Favorite Book

Wed, 25 Feb 2026 19:16:55 +0300

I’ve always believed there’s something so thoughtful, so deeply romantic about falling for someone who lives in art, whether it’s a writer, a painter, a poet, or even a photographer who takes pictures of you like you are the most beautiful sight he has ever seen. And now I’ve tried it. I’m in love with a writer, with a yearner, someone who saves me on the pages of his notes, spending hours writing about me. Someone who shows me his love through playing with words, through language. And I find myself in tears most of the time while I’m reading the things you write for me: how you see me, how you care about me, how you love me.

Growing in Autumn After the Winter

Sat, 21 Feb 2026 20:09:38 +0300

Since day one, it has been obvious that you are a hard working person. There is no way you are just an 18 kid with those achievements except that you are brilliant. I’m not just talking about materialistic achievements, but you looked different from the other teenagers. I know, you looked mature, someone who has seen a lot in this life, and has had experiences.

For me, I’ve been trying to improve myself since I was 16. I remember that at that age, I felt like I was the only one responsible for my life. The years from 16 to 19 were really heavy , especially 18, when I was trying to accept myself and understand who I am. I was alone in this journey. Sometimes I cried to my friends and family, but deep down I was still alone, lost, and weak.

Why It Will Always Be You

Tue, 17 Feb 2026 21:27:38 +0300

Even though I know you never doubt my love, if you ever find yourself wondering “why you?” the answer is both endless and simple. There are countless reasons and at the same time no reason at all. Just being you makes me love you again every single day, what makes you who you are is exactly what makes me love you.

Unconditional love is real and true love is real. Being with you makes me believe in that more and more every day. My love for you has never depended on a version of you. I loved you in every shape you showed me. When you were present and when you disappeared, when you were my leader, and when we were just talking like we used to when you were in Egypt. None of your phases ever changed what I feel. That is why I believe in unconditional love now, because I can see it clearly with you.

Rely On Me

Mon, 16 Feb 2026 23:15:00 +0300

I want you to rely on me, I want you to give me some of the weight you’ve carried your whole life and that you’re still carrying now, I will never let you down, and I will always be with you, giving you love and helping you stand again.

When I show you love, I feel better, it’s the same feeling I get when you tell me you love me, It’s truly the best feeling ever, my beloved. So please share with me what hurts you, your fears and your doubts. I can love you in the dark and in the light. I will love you in all seasons.

Pinky Promises - Telling Me When You Are Leaving

Sat, 14 Feb 2026 20:09:38 +0300

لا نحتاج من الآخرين وعدا بالبقاء بل أن يقولوا فقط إنهم سيختفون قليلا فيسكن القلق فينا ولا يت صبح أبسط شكل من أشكال الحب هو الشفافية: أن تمنح من يهمك يقينا صغيرا بدل أن تتركه ينهار في انتظار لا يعرف إن كان مؤقتا أم دائما.

I value honesty and clarity in any relationship, even at work. I also believe that everyone needs time for themselves sometimes, and it’s so important to me that we both feel happy and comfortable together. That’s what a healthy relationship looks like.

Crying Out Of Love

Fri, 13 Feb 2026 20:09:38 +0300

“البكاء ليس مرادفاً للحزن ، إنّه مرادف للإمتلاء .. ولذا يبكي السعيد، ويبكي الخائف، ويبكي الحزين”

دا اقتباس لاقاني قبل كدا لو استخدمناه في سياقنا (cry out of love) فهو دليل على انك مليان بالمشاعر دي لدرجة الشي الوحيد الممكن يخفف وطأها انك تبكي , ودليل على صدق مشاعرك ولين قلبك ووفاءك .

وفي ابيات المتنبي وَعَذَلْتُ أهْلَ العِشْقِ حتى ذُقْتُهُ فعجبتُ كيفَ يَموتُ مَن لا يَعشَقُ وَعَذَرْتُهُمْ وعَرَفْتُ ذَنْبي أنّني عَيّرْتُهُمْ فَلَقيتُ فيهِ ما لَقُوا

بغير خطاك

Thu, 12 Feb 2026 20:09:38 +0300

بغيرِ الماءِ

يا أحمد

تشيخُ طفولةُ الإبريقْ

بغيرِ خُطاك أنت

معي

يموتُ

جمالُ ألفِ طريقْ

بغيرِ سَمَاك

أجنِحَتِي

يجفُّ بريشِها

التحليقْ

The Problem Is I love you

Tue, 03 Feb 2026 20:09:38 +0300

If we choose to walk away now, I know it will break me. It would be the hardest breakup of my life. The problem is that my feelings for you are real and deep, and I hate the thought that our emotions right now could end everything we’ve built together. I’ve cared about you and loved you since we were young. Sometimes you make me feel like I’m just a friend, and that hurts more than I can explain. I don’t want anyone else. I only want you.

7th Of October

Tue, 07 Oct 2025 13:47:55 +0300

I find that I need to focus on myself and not expect anything from him. It makes me sad when I think he has changed, only to see him act the same way again. After I asked him to help him, he still seems isnt ready to face the issue.

Today, I deactivated my Instagram account so I can clear my mind. I’m planning to spend more time at college, to fill my days with something real instead of waiting for a message that may never come. I’ve made peace with replying kindly when he reaches out, but I won’t wait for it anymore.

To The One I Never Stopped Loving

Tue, 22 Apr 2025 20:09:38 +0300

I don’t know if I chose to love you, or if love took hold of me the moment our eyes met. Maybe I never had a choice. Maybe some hearts just find each other, and one holds on a little longer than the other.

From the very beginning, you lived in my thoughts. And two years and five months later… You still do. That’s not an exaggeration. It’s love, real, raw, quiet love that doesn’t fade just because time passes or others appear.

detachment

Tue, 22 Apr 2025 13:47:55 +0300

After I watched Detachment, I started to understand Ahmed’s perspective more. Henry, the main character, was a kind and gentle man with a painful past. He became a teacher in a rough school, where every student carried their own wounds. He was the only one who treated them with compassion and made them feel seen and worthy without judgment. Two girls fell in love with him, not because he tried to make them, but because no one had ever been kind to them the way he was. But Henry couldn’t give them what they wanted. He didn’t feel love, didn’t feel seen, and often described himself as empty someone who simply tried to ease people’s pain because he understood it too well.