/tags/carmy-favorites/ Recent content in Carmy Favorites on Suente Hugo en-us Mon, 02 Mar 2026 01:17:20 +0300 /posts/carmy/iam-no-longer-afraid-of-what-that-means/ Mon, 02 Mar 2026 01:17:20 +0300 /posts/carmy/iam-no-longer-afraid-of-what-that-means/ <p>There was a time when your longing for me would have sent me running. dependency, in any direction, was a door I kept locked from the inside. the responsibility of being someone’s shelter terrified me, not because I was cruel, but because I was convinced I would eventually fail at it, that I would promise warmth and deliver absence, that I would become the very disappointment I was afraid of being. and so the moment I sensed you leaning into me, or felt myself beginning to lean into you, something old and frightened in me would quietly slip out the back.</p> /posts/carmy/to-save-our-love/ Sun, 01 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0300 /posts/carmy/to-save-our-love/ <p>Thank you for writing <a href="https://suente.pages.dev/posts/north/i-take-promises-seriously/">the letter</a>. not only for writing it, but for sending it, and for sharing what you felt yesterday. I didn&rsquo;t feel frustrated when I read it, no, it was a relief. it was the relief of hearing you, of knowing you chose to speak instead of disappear into yourself. and I want you to know that I will always love receiving anything from you over receiving your silence. your silence and your distance can tear me apart in ways I don&rsquo;t have words for yet.</p>