I got worried today. not the normal passing kind of worry, but the obsessive kind. the kind that attaches itself to small images and refuses to leave. I did not want to share it with you at first. I felt it was too much. too heavy. too irrational to say out loud. so I told myself maybe I will forget about it. maybe it will dissolve on its own.

But it did not.

Every time I cross a street, I think of you crossing one. every time I walk outside and hear the sound of cars passing fast, I imagine you near them. I replay your voice notes in my head, the ones where you were outside, sounding happy and vibrant, wandering from the gym to the university and then back home alone. I can hear the life in your voice. the independence. the movement.

And instead of just smiling at that, my mind starts building scenarios.

What if you fall on the street. what if a car does not slow down. what if a stray animal reacts unpredictably. what if you are distracted for one second too long. what if something small turns into something irreversible. it is almost everything. my mind becomes a factory of worst-case outcomes.

I hate that it works like that sometimes.

It is not that I think you are careless. it is not that I doubt your awareness. it is that when someone matters deeply, your brain starts scanning for threats automatically. it tries to predict danger before it happens. it thinks that imagining it somehow protects against it.

I know this is excessive. I know you move through the world every day safely. I know you are capable. but please, just indulge me in something small.

Pay attention to the streets you walk through. do not walk in empty streets if you can avoid it.don’t pick a street full of stray dogs, look twice before crossing. do not stop for random cars. stay alert at the gym to avoid injuries. protect your body. protect your focus. protect yourself.

I do not want to control your movement. I do not want to cage your independence. I love that you move freely. I love that you wander. I love that you sound alive when you send those voice notes, I just want you safe.

That is all, stay aware. stay careful. stay present.

And please, take care of yourself.