You have no idea how much I care about your health. I have never cared for someone the way I care for you, and I don’t care for you only when you are shining. I will choose to stay with you even in the darkness, rather than be with everyone else in their brightest. I love you in all your states. I only love you more when you share your weakness with me, and I keep telling you, show me the hurt and I will love you more. I will make sure you don’t feel it again.

You are so hard on yourself. You don’t take resets. You drink coffee and treat your body so badly that it sometimes shuts down on you. I care about your physical and mental health more than anyone, and I want you to take care of those. Please, for me.

I have no one to benefit from my health other than myself, my family, and you. I am building a version of myself that is healthy, so I don’t have to let diseases disturb my day, so I don’t have to suffer from disorders or anything, after God’s will. And so should you. I want you to take good care of yourself for me. This is my only request for the time we are not together: to sleep well, to eat healthy, to exercise, to avoid radiation, to not be hard on yourself with exams, and just to be mindful of yourself. To not put pressure on yourself. To not let yourself be mentally hurt. Please take care of these until I take care of you.

I promise, inshallah. I will take care of you.