I put you through hurt.

Back when I sent you a video of me apologizing for how many times I was tough with you, I was in a co space.
There was this girl called Noor. she looks just like you. the same innocence. the same smile.

I did not look at her.
I looked into you.

As if she was a manifestation of you.

I felt guilt.

Why was I so hard on this girl, among all the girls I know.
Why was I dragging you into my own shadows.

Why did I keep talking and arguing with you for hours about things I should have never bothered myself to talk about.
I could have simply moved on.

I felt that I needed to apologize to you.

I apologized with a cheerful face.
I felt momentary happy talking to you in that video.

Although you were not there.
Although it was just me and the camera.

Deeply, I am guilty.

I feel the guilt of being heavy on you.
Of instead of showing you the soft parts, I let you experience the worst of them.

What eats my head up is this.
Among all the others, you are the one who deserves to see the most beautiful sides.

But why do I keep doing this.

Back when I sent you a video of me apologizing for how many times I was tough with you, I was in a co space.
There was this girl called Noor. she looks just like you. the same innocence. the same smile.

I did not look at her.
I looked into you.

As if she was a manifestation of you.

I felt guilt.

Why was I so hard on this girl, among all the girls I know.
Why was I dragging you into my own shadows.

Why did I keep talking and arguing with you for hours about things I should have never bothered myself to talk about.
I could have simply moved on.

I felt that I needed to apologize to you.

I apologized with a cheerful face.
I felt momentary happy talking to you in that video.

Although you were not there.
Although it was just me and the camera.

Deeply, I am guilty.

I feel the guilt of being heavy on you.
Of instead of showing you the soft parts, I let you experience the worst of them.

What eats my head up is this.
Among all the others, you are the one who deserves to see the most beautiful sides.

But why do I keep doing this.