It is always easy to die for someone, everyone can make this promise, but it is not easy to live for someone. to stop yourself from drowning in self destructive patterns for them. to stop beating yourself up for them. to change for them. My greatest battle darling was to change for you. to be the man I never could for you. I thought I would win this battle alone not knowing it was with you that I will only win. I won this one. I get to realize and remember how much I wanted you before, and now I’m slowly trying to see life differently, as I never did. It still feels like a dream, when I think that I’m not single anymore. I’m in love. it was far away in my mind, it was a possibility that I never saw myself in, and let alone being in love with you, and that the girl I loved the most, loves me the same. Sean was right.

“I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. but you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you.” -Sean

I now know how it feels like. I know what it feels like to be vulnerable, and to look at a woman who is totally vulnerable. this thought has changed me from the inside out. and made someone else out of me. But yes, I would live for you. I want to build a life around you, and I want to fix everything in my life just for you, because I had no other reason, except you. I would fight for you. I would become better for you. I’m telling the world to wait for me, let me get the aches and dust out of me. for the crowd: you have never seen me truly powerful, truly confident. I just say, sit down and watch me, and I would win.